We're drowning in cliches.

So maybe today wasn't exactly like I thought it would be. I've been thinking non stop about my current predicament, I've got cramps of the devil, and I'm an emotional wreck due to PMS. It's times like these that I really wish I was a boy. Life would be easy breezy if I wanted it to be. Ugh, it feels like a lightning storm in my stomach. I can't wait t go home, as weird as that sounds. Also, I'm at a stand-still with what I should do with my water color painting. It has to be a landscape, animal, or person. But if it is a person or object or something, it has to be in pattern. D:! Extremely difficult to work with. For me, anyway. I'm really not creative when it comes to limited choice. Oh well. I'll just do it with half a mind. I'm not motivated to do much at all.

Now, don't call me creepy, but I've been following someone with my eyes all day. If they pass, I've been mesmerized by their presence. It's bad. I don't know this person all that well, and I wish I knew them better. They're the kind of person I wish I knew better. The kind of person I want to get closer to. My eyes keep falling on this person, even when I don't want them to. I mean, I'm in a happy relationship. Simon is great to me, in every way. So why am I so eager to become this persons only thought? It's driving me mental. I love Simon. I really do. But what am I to do? Do I shun this person completely? I'm so lost. I guess I'll just let it be. Maybe this is temporary. I don't want to leave Simon. I have no intentions of doing so. He already promised to marry me. I know that at sixteen, people will think this as nothing, but (Here we go again with a cliche), I love Simon, and no one could possibly understand that. I hope these feelings pass. Remain friends. That's what I want. If me and Simon ever break up for some dumb reason, this person would be my essential choice.

Solution? Well, we'll find out soon enough I suppose. I'll let you eager beavers know what's happening in the near future.

On a lighter note, I really have to pee.

-<3
01/19/10